Wednesday, 22 May 2013

Feeling alone in the hotel room....

After so long...I met with someone at my workplace at Hospital Tawau.I made a promise to myself when I left Kuala Lumpur I would never fall in love...but somehow God sent me an angel and his name was Roy...a physiotherapist.Working at the same hospital but different departments.He noticed me at first when I was working at the outpatient pharmacy dispensing medication to him.At that time I was too busy to notice him and he was attracted to him.After that maybe I started to notice him and thats when my heart starts to skip a beat.A few days later he followed his friend to take medication and he was there.I took the next step by searching for him through Facebook but I failed.Then through a  friend of mine,I saw his picture and found him. I chatted with him and we went out for several of times for drinks.He told me that he broke off with his boyfriend and he was single.I started to have hope to fall in love again. One day he told me that his ex bf wants him back and he accepted him.Nonetheless he loves me too and wants me in his life.So the relationship was basically me meeting with him at night when his bf goes back. I can only see him at night but I was happy as I get to be with him. Things was going on well until the Lahad Datu incident whereby I dont get to be with him at night and after the incident seems like he was having a lot of problems such as deaths in the family and losing his wallet.I gave him money to help him out until he gets his IC.Several unhappy incident took place and made me to take the ultimate decision by asking him to choose if he wants me or his current partner as you can never love two person at one time.It really hurts me to make that decision as I love him so much and I dont want to lose him.All I have from him is the Sindoor he put on my head and his gold necklace which he gave me to pawn since he owes me money as he couldnt pay at the moment and I need the money to pay my house rental. I don't have the heart to pawn his necklace as I love him so much so I asked my friend to give me some money. So I gave him space for him to decide and hopefully he will give me happiness by loving me.As for his necklace I brought it to Ganesha temple in KL,Murugan temple in Teluk Intan to get blessing.Tomorrow I shall take to the Amman Temple at Pulau Pangkor to ask Her bless the necklace and Sunday when I go back I will return to him. I wish I will be with him.....




Saturday, 12 January 2013

My pet...WXS 7586...

After working for almost three month in the gov sector as a pharmacist...I bought a new car...Well it is kinda a must for someone working here in Tawau to get a car as the public transportation here is quite limited...I must say that I never drove after getting my license for almost three years except on the highway with my dad beside me...The fear of getting involve in an accident always prevents me from driving thus I nurtured this fear throughout the years and back in KL, I traveled to every single location by public transport or my dad fetches me there..Now I must fight the fear that has grown in me and be able to drive bravely on the road with God's blessing...I hope God will be next to me when I am driving the car...Got my baby on the 9th of Jan...

Tuesday, 1 January 2013

Happy New Year 2013

Just decided to type down  a few words to commemorate this day on my blog...not really in the mood to write anything as work is getting tougher  by the days...never thought life as a PRP would be tiring but it is a journey I must endure and hopefully at the end of the road I can the success...anyway I decided to give my focus on blogging and tomorrow I shall blog about my new year eve and new year day activity..

Sunday, 4 November 2012

After missing for a long time...

I guess a lot of things has happen from my last day that I blog till today...Things are different...I am at a different place, Tawau Sabah working as a pharmacist at Hospital Tawau...away from my parents and totally independent...surrounded by two wonderful housemates...living in a condo..5 minutes away from hospital..no traffic jam..abundant of good foods...that is the summary of so far in my life....well before I fly here....I was working at Millennium Pharmacy Taman Megah...my so called boyfriend decided to end the relationship after two weeks...argued with my boss at Millennium Pharmacy and was told to leave the pharmacy on a rainy day...regretted for arguing with her and apologized for my attitude..finally her husband hired me for two weeks so that I can end my period of working at a retail pharmacy successfully...despite all the memories I had there...thinking back now..I am glad as it made me change into a better person and lastly I finally performed circumcision due to a condition phymosis...well right now I am in the recovery period....so I shall start to blog soon as frequent as possible...

Sunday, 10 June 2012

God please safe my true love...

I have done everything in my capability to make it up to Baby Boon and so I am finally at the dead end with one last option and I hope that this last option will make him come back to me. I just hope that true love will survive and win him back. I guess after this I shall leave it to God cause this last option is beyond my power and there is nothing I can do to control it. I will let Lord Ganesha to help me in winning him back. I pray to you and I hope you will fulfill it...A new week a new beginning...

Saturday, 9 June 2012

In his car...1496

Well Baby Boon came to visit me one day at my work place surprising me cause earlier that day he asked for my work address and I had a feeling that he is going to come to visit me but I was not thinking that it will happen. He came and waited in his car. He messaged me saying that he is outside the pharmacy I work. So I decided to take a time off and find his car. Thanks to his Facebook profile I could recognize his car easily and I entered his car. Once in his car, I didn't feel awkward at all in fact I wasn't even scared sitting next to a stranger that I barely know for 1 week plus and it was through Facebook and phone calls. He was on his way to fetch his sister to watch Men In Black 3 and he stopped by at my place. After some time talking to him, I decided that I wanted to hold his hand. He gave his hand and we held together for almost 10 min. It was the most romantic time of my life as I never hold any guys hand before as someone that I love as a boyfriend. Then after after 20 min sitting in his car it was time for me finally to bid farewell to him and get back to work. It has been almost 6 days since he broke off the relationship with me. I don't know if it was for the good or the other way round but I think I am gonna leave it to God to decide for me as I love him so much. He made me feel so special and he is the first and only person to ever reply my love. We are from different background but I have given my heart to him...Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam...I will be waiting for you baby...

Thursday, 7 June 2012

Baby Boon, I look to you...

Well last Sunday I was suppose to meet my bf at his work place and then afterwards he was suppose to take me to Sepang Gold Coast and enjoy the evening stroll by the beach and followed by going back to his place to stay overnight and he will be sending me to work the next day. This was discussed on Saturday night. I was kinda scared at the thought of spending overnight at his place. Maybe this could be due that I was never in a relationship before and I don't know what to expect. Plus I was also broke waiting for my salary thus I don't have any cash with me to travel to meet him. I didn't tell him this. I finally told him on Sunday that I can't be able to make it. He didn't sms me nor call me until later at night he called me and I asked me if I thought he was pissed on me. I said no and I was happy that he finally called me after waiting for so long thinking everything was okay. So I went to work on Monday and continue updating him about my happenings. Later that evening he sent me messages ending the relationship saying that I deserve better and he dont want to waste my time. He said we cannot be together. It was so heart breaking to read such a sms after you have given all your heart loving someone. He called me every night and we talked to each other almost one hour. Four years I've been looking for love and when I finally found it, it decides to leave me quickly. Why must he break up with me?He makes me happy in a very special way and yet he thinks I should deserve someone better. I can't digest the fact that I have already lost him. I tried smsing and calling him but he never replied. I don't want to blame God but why must He take one thing that was so precious to me?Baby Boon I love you.